The most efficient way to heal from chronic, mystery illness is to find a self-healing tool that works for you, and use it every. single. day.
How to determine what your body needs most in any given moment, so that you're not constantly wrestling with that awful question of "is any of this even working?"
This is me on July 15, 2012, my first successful “test hike” after 10 years of illness. The trail to Glacier Lake in southern Montana is a short, steep 3-mile victory for anyone who takes it, and that day it signified to me that I. Was. Back. Illness was finally going to be in my rear-view mirror.
I’d hiked alone that day, because I didn’t yet trust my body, and couldn’t stand the thought of disappointing anyone, if I had to turn back again. But I didn’t. Instead, I skipped the last 50 yards to the lake, beside myself with giddiness, and kissed the ground moments after taking this shot.
A week later, I put on the pack, joined my then-husband and dog, and backpacked 5 miles to celebrate my 40th birthday. SWEET does not begin to describe it. There had been many, many, MANY days during those 10 years when I found myself at the edge of hope: believing I COULD recover, but not quite believing IN recovery, if that makes any sense.
My healing journey (the part during which I was actually getting better, not just trying one thing after another) was quick. Six months from “I think I might actually be dying” to knowing the nightmare was over.
If you’re stuck in some form of Invisible Illness, your journey is going to be unique; whether you’re a wounded healer, or just a person whose life has hit a major speedbump, I’m here to tell you it can end well. You can get your life back.
And for those who would like to follow a map out of the abyss, I’d love to be your guide.